I Hate Negativity!
Negative attitudes, negative comments, negative actions, and negative thoughts. Pain is a negative physical feeling that we cannot control and in a lot of cases…we can’t cure. Those that can’t heal the way their brain processes, with or without meds, are affected so easily.
I was just out of a two month flare up of my fibromyalgia. You know the kind that inspires doctors to try all sorts of medicine to see if they can put a Band-Aid on your ailments? Yep, that kind! Nothing worked though, not even the top advertised prescription for nerve pain. (1 guess on what that is!) I was spiraling down physically and mentally and emotionally. My happy-happy-joy-joy mojo ran out! I cried and I got angry.
Now, anger definitely is a negative emotional (but valid) response to the situation until I started thinking… Have I really done everything I can to make myself better? Nope! I failed in a major way. Not once did I hold myself accountable for my own health, not fully at least. All I was doing was mimicking the doctors. All I did was look for band aids.
In the past several weeks I have gotten myself to do Aqua Therapy, joined a gym with my husband, became addicted to everything related to bullet journaling, and helped create a new community group on FB. (The bullet journal and FB group will be other stories.)
I saw a new Rheumatologist that handed me a pamphlet on Fibromyalgia and recommended I go back on to the same Rx that gave me tachycardia…. “just start at a really low dose and work your way up!” Really?!?! Yeah, I think I’ll stick with managing my body and mind with my internal medicine doctor!
If we allow negativity to affect us, what happens? Our depression worsens, our anxiety peaks, and the pain levels sky rocket!
I plan on starting to meditate, to continue my aqua therapy, and keep on searching for ways to control my pain. I’m still very sensitive emotionally (ask the hubby how often he gets to joke around) and my anxiety is limiting me from leaving my bubble.
Am I all better now?
Nope. Am I sleeping better at night? Nope. So how are those few things helping me? I took control of me instead of letting my pain and many other ailments control me. That is my positive and I hope others can find their positive too.
Drop me a comment below and let me know how you manage negativity in your life!